He's arrived, our second bundle of joy. Christopher. I'm now living in the haze of getting used to him and helping baby Elephant get settled too. So is hubby. It's a whirl of emotions. Joy at Chris's arrival and being able to hold him in my arms. Anxiety because of baby Elephant having to cope with so changes at the same time - new baby in the family, being at home during the day instead of at grandma's, mommy not being able to give him all her attention like she used to.....
Well, baby Elephant's actually surprised me in more ways than one, in his wanting to pat and carry Chris, to give him toys to soothe him when he's wailing, calling me when Chris makes even the tiniest sound so I can take care of Chris. Again, what makes my heart ache is seeing him so loving, and yet at certain times, I see him a little forlorn and lost in his own thoughts. When I'm trying to feed Chris, I see him look up at whatever activity he's in the middle of and look at us, as if he were a little confused and almost as if he longed for the times hen he was the only child.
I laugh, I cry, I struggle with the new situation. Hormones, exhaustion, frustrations.... yet joy pervades. Whatever it is, we are complete :)
p.s. Chris doesn't have a nickname on this blog because the nicknames we used for him haven't yet stuck. Right now, he's all mine and he's known as mommy's sweetheart (I used this for baby Elephant too. Yes, I'm unoriginal but I like what I like :)) Pictures are coming soon, they're on my phone.
